Saturday, December 10, 2011

grasping at air

there are f e w words.

went through R.A.D. self defense simulations yesterday

flashbacks    terror     crying

13 hours later still not okay

still crying  still scared    still terrified

need safe hugs   need peace    need for it all to go away

need to cope   bad ideas in mind  

need help   need to talk     but there are no words

i’m silenced just like then

oh, god, how i need help

1 comment:

castorgirl said...

Hi M.I.S.,

I was wondering how you'd get through the self defence simulations... I'm so sorry it was so triggering.

Keep repeating to yourself that you are now safe... You did the course to try and help you defend yourself, if needed. You're not hurt. You can get through this...

I'm so sorry...

Sending positive thoughts and (((warm safe hugs))) your way,